I'll return you back to you, just a little longer, can I?

You said most of the things you wanted in life I can't provide you. I asked "what is it?" you said [freedom] and [money], and to some point I'm actually restricting and keep you slow from it. Thanks for being transparent, thank you for telling me, I will work my best toward your goal in life. 

I love you my dear and therefore I wanted the best for you, make you the happiest man, treat you the best I could, life has not been the kindest to you for the past 30yrs and I wanted to give you my best and love you wholeheartedly, i wanted to show you the color in life and be the light when you walk through the dark.

My dear laogong, I am not sure if you will ever read this post, but if you do, I wanted to tell you I love you wholeheartedly and my life goal is to live a life with you, I wanted to make you the happiest man on earth, spend my everyday with you, cook with you, swim with you, laugh with you, see the world with you, irritate you daily, be your cartoon laopo, and tell you I love you everyday. 

However, after today conversation, I know I can't be so selfish, I love you too much to see you being burden by me. I love you too much to keep you from having the things you wanted the most: freedom and money. how can I restricting you from it, if my love is a burden, even it hurt me a lot I will let you go,  to live the life you yearning of. So my dear laogong, I promise to be the best partner I can, be a great laopo, ill work hard to love you all I can this 3 year, until the day where you are mentally and physically healthy, and when the time is here, ill return you back to you and all you have build for me this 3 years, you will be able to enjoy your freedom and worry-free of money for the rest of your life. I'll still be loving you from afar and support you when you needed me, but you no longer hold any responsible and burden of taking care of me. I remember I said ill burn the world if I can't have you, no worries, I'll only burn down my own world, yours will be a peaceful tranquil world that you may live freely everyday. You will alwayz own a big part in my heart, this i can promise you. Till then, ill love you as hard as I can everyday from now on, create as much memory as I can with you, I think by the time is here, these memories will be enough to company me a life time. Please always remember you are greatly love by someone somewhere far everyday, you are worth everything nice that happen to you. 

I love you my dear laogong. Thank you for giving me this coming 3 years. I'll cherish everyday of it, build all sweet and great memory with you. 

Love, laopo.