= CoRaL's Chateau on Land =

姐姐和姐夫在几小时前搭上了飞机回娘家去了 大概要一个星期后才会回来 房间里就剩下我一个人 再过三天就要在新的工作环境正式上班了 心里难免会有些些紧张有些些不安 从回到这小小国家小小房间的那一刻 我就已经开始无时无刻每想到就努力地做心里建设 我太明白自己的个性也知道自己的缺点和弱点 我想我家人也或多或少很了解我 虽然我表面没什么家人打来我也装着一幅“别担心，我有什么没经历过，安啦”的态度 但是心里到底有多安稳大家可都略懂一二 我很明白自己是属于哪种如果身边有人需要依靠我 才会忽然不知哪根筋搭到那根神经突然勇敢了起来 要不然其他以外的时候我都是哪胆小得家人都看不过眼的家伙 因为常要掩饰我的胆小我的不自在 这些年我的演技好像被磨练得还不错除了家人 外人好像都看不出那演技下猛留冷汗的家伙 明天就是2011年的最后一天 一个人身在无朋友无家人的国度里 到底有谁会有兴致一个人去跨年 真的超级无法喜欢这种孤独的空间 一年就好了我明年绝对不要历史从演 这种感觉会让人不小心陷入一种没落的模式里无可自拔 这难以解释的病状我把它称为FSD (Festival Stess Disorder)  而单身的又离乡背井的人患上的纪律最高 为了不让自己太难痊愈我明天早上要好好出门 买个礼物送给自己 “谢谢自己在这一年里那么努力那么坚强地走过来 ~” “谢谢自己一直都那么相信自己 ,相信上天没遗忘自己 ~” 亲爱的 2012，  我会努力的让我每一天的嘴角都有向上弯的时候， 等到 2012的今天我再来和你报告我这一年傲人的成果~ ^^ 

我真是个“产量”超少的部落客 少到我偶尔想起也会有些惭愧 不是我不爱写 而是我太挑剔写的氛围 我不喜欢又或许是真的无法适应 在身边有人的情况下写 我总觉得部落格就是我心的小小窝 是把心拿出来让它释放 让它在那短短的文章内无妨备的做自己 我又怎么能够在有外人的环境下把它拿出来呢 就因为这份无来由老人般的固执 让我常常无法碰见那静止的空间 所以说产量少千错万错都怪自己太龟毛的错..  = =

人再大方都有个限度 每个人对于放开的态度也有所保留 有些人选择完全遗忘 把过往和现今分得很清楚 转身离开的那一刻就决定不再回头望 而有些人会不由自主地保留一些些的留恋 然后放在自己心里的某处厮守着 我想两者都没什么不对因为在感情的世界里 有谁是可以完全理智的操控 时间从来就不成停止过 分开的那一刻时间依然悄悄地在你身边偷溜过 随着时间的流走 身边陆陆续续的出现了许多人 有的是朋友 有的是同学同事 有的是暧昧的他 这些人不停的住进大家各自的脑袋 然后把小小脑袋里的回忆装得满满的 这仿佛已经是一种百年不变的规律了 若是说回忆里的人就像“后浪推前浪” 这形容词用在这里好像也不为过 如果感情没有所谓的自私与否 那我希望我一直都在 ... ... 亲爱的 别在回忆里装下太多人 我害怕我的影子会被淹没

有时候太久没谈恋爱 就会忘了喜欢一个人是什么感觉 是要喜欢到什么程度 才要和对方在一起 喜欢 欣赏 仰慕 爱 到底是什么都渐渐模糊了 以前也许会很坚定地相信自己很明白 但是时间的流逝把理所当然的骄傲 变得无比的单纯 一群二一到二五的女生和二六的男生吃饭 聊着聊着的话题总是默默地到了感情的头上 从大家的感情史到恋爱观 就像一部部的电影在脑海里不停的上映 原来大家的肩上都有属于自己的摄影机 把我们的一切都丝毫无缺的记录下来 和年幼的朋友聊天时 总是会在她们的口中找到自己的影子 原来时间会把那曾经幼稚的信仰一点一点地消除 慢慢变成现在处处理性化的世界 这样的世界好像会把爱也吓跑 原来聪明的女人很多依然是一个人 大家仿佛不想投入一段感情只想留恋在无束的自由 或许寂寞是单身女子最基本条件 偶尔心里有个过不去的恶魔 但是另一头的骄傲总是会和自己说: 一个人也可以很好 现在开始要努力地做自己喜欢的样子 因为你要吸引的不是大众而是就算你那么平凡 依然想要了解你的小众 有人说： 不要害怕自己的不完美 而是要努力地做自己喜欢的样子 就因为不怕男人不喜欢的态度 才是男人喜欢上你的理由 我想我未来的老公一定有镭射眼 因为他需要忽视美貌与身材的种种外在 才能看见那躲在里头安静的内在 :)

“你放开的 是很多人努力想得到的” 不曾握在手里的 往往都让人很渴望 一旦握过了 发现其实自己要的 好像不是这个了 人生顿时又往另一个方向去 又从新开始对其他渴望 这样的惯律 一直不停的上演 原来这就是人生的拼图.

后悔自己来了这里吗 后悔当初不顾一切地放下家人工作 跑到这鸟不生蛋的地方拼命吗 后悔拼命了那么久经过了重重难关 到最后决定为家人而活吗 我想了很久很久 久到在床上睡着了 睡醒时问题依然在等着我 内心依然在挣扎 到底要如何和身边的人说 到底要如何和不明白的人交待 你可能会说不需要交待啊 但是身边的人总是会问 心里头不想把家里的事提起的时候 到底要如何让大家明白 我为什么放下又为什么回来 除了这些 我回去了该做什么 该有什么打算 太多的问题让我有点神经错乱 幸好我这人 烦恼常常困扰我不久 每件事情的发生 我想一定有它的理由 每件不如意的事 可能就是上帝保护我的方法 就像那个原本应该911大厦内的职员 因为车子被撞没有上班 就这样逃过一劫 又或者我以后的路 会因为这个看似坏的转折点 而迎来更美好的未来 收拾好心情 就该好好在离开前 享受这平静的日子 昨天我站在人生的道路看见微光 以为快到人生某个小站了 哪知道忽然一颗大树倒下把路完全挡住 怎么都没办法过去 今天的我决定回头走回那交叉点 再从新出发 这一次的路虽然比较遥远比较困难 但是我知道我的终点 依然会回到那我最想要的未来 I am Coral. 我是珊瑚 倔强的化石 再大的风浪都催不毁 我那打不死的小强毅力

many famous and successful people  always give speeches and speak words wif wisdom many had spoken the same and their words had always become the quote of the day. did this quote of the day ever inspire you? the answer is Yes, but not always. Steve Jobs pass away 2days ago many words that spoken by him floating up the surface people started to google about him his words, his speeches, his everything of all things that he had said  it can be conclude with one sentences that he made during an interview.  he said: Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.  They know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary. Other than him, many other famous ppl said the similar things at least once.  i wonder how strong and lucky are they in order to speak this words and how about those who did not make it in this road. Following your heart and intuition is easy but maintaining it every time when you come to an obstacle and every ...

我忽然发现 我很努力的挣扎 我是疯了吗 或许吧 反正我醒了 也发现自己白痴而懊恼 人生嘛 没必要担心太遥远 你思考得再多 确定自己的未来方向 但是你完全无法预知 这一路上到底会发生什么插曲 又会带你到哪个地方 哪个你更开心的目的地 所以说 我干吗在挣扎 选我喜欢的就好 反正一天不到终点 谁也不确定这条路通去哪 世上没有绝对的路！  加油吧 靠自己的直觉 走出自己想要的未来!! Wussh!!

在乡村的街道上行走 身边总会有一群老人 聚在一起闲聊着 聊天时地利 聊国家大事 聊当年往事 经过的年轻人 偶尔会看不起他们 有时会完全忽视他们 年轻人啊年轻人 如果你知道他的爸爸是伟人 他的爷爷是建国栋梁 他当年是今天的十大首富 你还会用这样的眼神看他吗 你还会面无笑容的擦肩而过吗 最近远方亲戚来探望 透过妈妈表姐们 更了解我们家的背景 我们家的根源比别人家或许 更复杂一些 但是没有复杂到难以明白 很想写一本书 把家里的根源记录下来 因为我个人觉得太精彩了 我妈家里是耕种的 我外公是个中医师 我外婆是个很诚心的天主教徒 她很可爱也很勤劳 她不是原之于中国 她爸爸是泰国华侨 妈妈是日本华侨 可惜她妈妈在她出生的时候过世 日子久了就没人再记得她的生日到底是几时了 所以每年的母亲节 变成了她的生日 我外婆小时候过的很好 但是长大以后日子很艰苦 我外婆的爸爸很多老婆 所以她的兄弟姐妹并不少 我外婆心底很单纯而且特善良 我妈说外婆来自好人家 从小就受到很好的教养 家人也很疼她 我对我外婆的身世一直很好奇 妈妈懂得也不够详细 直到这一次远亲(外婆的兄弟)的探望 表姐的告知才知道来龙去脉 我外婆原来出生在贵族 这样说一点都不夸张 因为她的外公是当时 暹罗(现在的泰国)的首富 她们家是种植橡胶的 * 首富也 觉得有点不可思议 直到现在 虽然已经不如当年那么风光 但是家境依然很雄厚家业依然还在 但是为什么我外婆过的那么苦 我妈那一辈的也过得那么穷苦 话说我外婆的爸只有一个哥哥 家业理所当然是这2个儿子接手 可惜我外婆的爸叛逆爱玩 带着妻子们到马来西亚 在这里买了地开始种植橡胶 他去世以后这些地全被老婆们给分去了 我外婆因为妈妈早已过世 所以她爸去世前早已把她嫁给好人家 * 我太公很年轻就往生了 嫁到我外公家也就是当时马六甲最富有的华人 一切原本都很好但是可惜还是打战了 马六甲被占据了 外公家的家产全都被夺走 就这样外公家拿着偷偷藏起的金 买了我小时候长大的那幅地 从那时开始外公家的兄弟姐妹们 就开始耕种在那里落地生根 在打完战几年后 我外婆的大伯（她爸的哥哥） 通知我外婆说她的外公过世了 家业自然的由唯一还在世的儿子接手 ...

A successful relationship requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. 你生命中曾经有没有那么一个人 每一次你见到他 你都会爱上他一次 打从心里觉得自己很幸福 因为站在那儿的他，是你的 每当他牵起你的手 在人群中穿越 你都在心里暗喜 因为你的小手温暖到极点 喜欢他认真看书的样子 然后忽然被他发现你在看他 喜欢他自信的模样 觉得你的他真的帅翻天了 喜欢他打完球的表情 疲倦但却满足的笑容 喜欢他懒散赖在你身上的感觉 像个水蛭一样甩也甩不开 喜欢他耍心机的孩子气 然后吵着和你要奖赏 喜欢他发脾气破功的笑声 让你情不自禁的跟着乱笑 喜欢他洗完澡坏坏的邪笑 然后追着没洗澡的你跑 喜欢他总是在你难过的时候 默默地把你往他温暖的怀里抱 喜欢他在你生气的时候 有耐性的在你身边等你消气 喜欢他在你害怕的时候 他手心传来的安全感 喜欢他在你快乐的时候 笑的比你还开心 喜欢他..... 喜欢.... 喜欢.... 太多的喜欢 太多的爱 属于你的.... 你还收着吗 every time  whenever u come into my mind i can only smile the more i smile the more i recalled those stupid yet sweet memory we meet at the wrong time i can tell, so are you if we have meet each other years later we might not be where are we now i will be married one day with someone who love me like u but i know i will always have you in me. of course, this i...

不管跑得多快 飞得多远 问题原来从来不是地点 再美丽的地方 再美好的地方 一个人呆久了 也会开始慢慢退色 再震撼人心的风景 没人分享 也只不过是刹那的震撼 震撼以后只剩下遗憾 遗憾没人看见你所看见的美丽 很想问问老天爷 可不可以告诉我 属于我一个人的他 到底在哪里 就算不能知道他的长相 他家的地址 他何时会出现 但可不可以至少和我说 他到底在哪个城市 好让我知道该在哪里等他 世界说大不大 说小一点都不小 就像一题选择题有一千一万个选择 而我不知道那个才是对的 没有提示没有头绪 和蒙上眼睛走路没两样 老天爷 我的心孤单习惯了 你能不能帮帮我 因为我........ 想改掉这个坏习惯

开始习惯这里的步调 哪没有压力的生活 没什么车辆的路 不见人影的行人道 和人们脸上和蔼的微笑 开始明白为什么 住在国外的人 那么爱看书了 在这里不到一个月的我 也养成了爱看书的习惯了 每天中午没什么事干的时候 手里自然而然的拿起一本书 到厨房倒杯温蜜糖 然后坐在床上或沙发上 都也不动的度过几小时 在这之前对自己想要投入的行业 不是那么的明确 在这里所经历的一切 让我很确定我以后 到底想要怎样的生活 我不是一个人 人总是会在挣扎的时候 忽然灯泡一亮 才看见自己之前一直看不见的事物 就当作是我自我感觉太良好吧 我开始越来越爱我自己 也越来越爱我家人 我那像百万军队般雄伟的家人 总是在我忍着痛不说的时候 发现我的痛苦 总是在我与压力挣扎的时候 为我开起另一扇窗 让我的担忧顿时降到最低 现在的我依然会一直奋斗下去 不过请放心 当我不行的时候 我一定会转弯走向家的那个方向 不会让自己倒下的 =） 今天我做了一个Drawing Personality Test 分析的结果是这样写的 You tend to pursue many different activities simultaneously.  When misfortune does happen, it doesn't actually dishearten you all that much. You are a thoughtful and cautious person.  You like to think about your method, seeking to pursue your goal in the most effective way. You like following the rules and being objective.  You are precise and meticulous, and like to evaluate decisions before making them. You have a sunny, cheerful disposition. and i think... it's kinda true.. ^___^* 

喝酒的伴 一起看电影的伴 早午晚餐的那个伴 朋友不能流的太晚  明天要上班 唱K的伴 一起去旅行的伴 听懂我的笑话的伴 我的生活 只差那个人就美满 快乐剩一人分享 快乐就只剩一半 喝一碗汤 心怎么都不够暖 这张被单 这张睡床 再舒服都觉得太宽 没人分享 幸福就只剩一半 就算把日子都填满 节日却提醒我孤单 没有想法 有想法又能怎样 只能写部落格整晚 几个留言安慰不了 心里的遗憾 没有负担 原来也是种fudan 自由多得让人发慌 你羡慕我 那要不要和我交换 最近看见结婚订婚了的朋友 都在烦恼着买家买车 家里等等的烦恼 看见他们 我不禁的觉得自己 好像落队了 一起同个起跑点出发 在途中是不是跑得太慢 不够用心 为什么现在 仿佛和大家站在 人生不同的阶段 大家都已经换个操场 我怎么还在努力地跑完一样的轨道 我到底哪里出了问题 还是其实这都不是我的问题 只是我的人生道路和大家有点不一样 轨道的长短有点不一而以 真的是这样吗？ 告诉我

一副面具 到底可以有多坚固 我努力地扮演自己的角色 不想给家人带来任何负担 只想努力地让家人过得更好 我很热爱我的工作 离开的时候 真的下了很大的决心 要说是哪里来的勇气 应该就是梦想吧 想要让家人过得好一些 想让自己成长多一些 一个人来到陌生的国度 老实说我真的很害怕 在家人面前一直说 我很好 我OK  我没事  其实内心超不安 很想停止这旅程回家去 不过还是把这情绪压制了 绝对不能在家人的面前 泄漏软弱的一面 因为家人已经很担心很心疼了 在这里12天了 陪伴我来这的姐姐 三天前回去了 送姐姐到机场的时候 一直克制住自己的眼泪 不能让它留下来 我哭了姐姐一定也会哭 只会让她更放心不下我 回到车上的那一刻 已经是我的极限了 眼泪无法控制的留下 很用力的闭起双眼 不想让任何人看见自己的软弱 眼泪从缝隙中源源不绝的留出 直到我不知不觉地睡着 姐姐离开的那一天 情绪很不稳 家人的一封简讯  几句安慰 我的眼泪都会噼里啪啦的留下 那天的我真的很不像我 过去一年哭过的眼泪都不比那一天多 其实我忘了我最后一次放肆大哭 到底是什么时候 就到连我自己都忘了 就连这一次我依然无法开怀大哭 到底是何时开始 我害怕让人看见我的软弱 害怕别人以为我很懦弱 这几天中午都会和妈妈 在msn聊天 今天妈妈和我说 她和爸爸都很心疼我 一个人在这里 那么的寂寞 那么的难受 妈妈说她和爸爸 都因为我而觉得很骄傲 她说我是家里最胆小的 但是当我知道姐姐 没能实现他们的移民梦想 我竟然自己扛起了他们的梦想 勇敢的一个人漂洋过海来到这里 听完妈妈的话 眼泪不知不觉地留下 内心的寂寞不停的涌上来 我在这里真的感觉很孤单 没有朋友和家人 原来是那么痛苦的 这几天一个人在家 嘴巴应该臭死了 因为一句话都没说 家里没人 出门散步也没遇见什么人 连续两天没说话 我开始佩服我自己了 “哑巴”的生活 我开始了 一个人的家其实一点都不温暖... 一个人散步其实没有想象中愉快... ......很想找个人来陪...

i have a bunch of friendly and lovely colleagues even though we just met each other for 4 months but we always mistaken that we have knew each other for long there's a few that i'm really close with we are like the support of each other in the center we talk nonsense every morning share gossip that we gather around the center and laugh out loud where no one knows why we are called as the Sushi Gang* juz because we love Sushi and we went out for sushi together =D once a while we will went out for tea time after work to release our anger and stress and frustration in the center and everytime it ended with laughter i'll definitely going to miss those time as for my other colleagues we are as good as friend not just colleagues we laugh we talk we gossip we do silly stuff together i'm so gonna miss everyone in the center coz we r juz like a BIG big family... "once an EAPer.. always an EAPer" love ya all ~

last friday is my last day of work my heart weight a thousand pound i guess coz its soooo heavy i hug all my kids as tight as i can and kept asking them who am i i am so afraid that they're going to forget bout me (which they probably will, juz the matter of time) i had my photos with my kids and send them back with tears in my heart i did not run a full session with them i juz hang around and play with them through out the session wishing that they would have me in their memory forever when 3.30pm bell rang i knew my very last session was over A great big hug from parents and kids ended my journey here words of appreciation from parents touches my heart i am glad that i have this job and was able to help my kids grow seeing them improving and verbalizing always brighten up my days and whenever they saw me and ran to hug me tats no words to describe how much i love them i truly hope that in the future  they can live happily and the smile on their face never faded away even though ...

一直以来 都不是一个人 无论去那里 总是有人陪伴左右 这一次终于 要一个人去闯了 心，真的难免会有压力 i tot it might not be this fast at least few months later but who knows God had make d decision for me i'm leaving my homeland again and this time i won't be back in short at least years.. i promise myself to come back every half a year so that i won't miss here too much.. gonna give out my resignation letter on monday hopefully everything will turn out fine my current employer will let me go by end of this month within tis few weeks i have to apply for my visa book my flight and arrange everything i'm happy as i always wanted to go outside of here to explore and learned others culture but tis time is not like any time before cause tis time i am going there alone without family or friends to be frank i am really nervous and stress but i believe time will sort out everything I'LL BE FINE.... *pray hard* Palmerston North, NZ here i come... pls be kind to me....

once i read a book written by a mid age writer she said people who used to clean their own wound forget the way to asked for help even though the hands were just right in front to be reach a timid girl is a girl with wound in heart that's so deep til no one reach

my previous post was on April 22th is like one month plus ago what happen within this gap did i abandoned my blog too lazy to update  or tats nothing much to post is not either of the reasons above is d combination of all above mayb i'm still learning to share learning to share my emotions learning to share my thoughts learning to share my feelings my life problems here was not that i refuse to share i just feel uncomfortable  i do share my photos in FB my status in FB & Twitter but certainly not frequent i love to share i wan to share but i feel insecure sharing in details i share photos of places i visited i share quotes that really meaningful and i share words that inspired from other's story but i find it hard to share the inner self sometimes i wish i can be like others bravely letting out their emotions, thoughts  and get comfort by people around i guess i still need to work hard or mayb harder till the day i can type out said out  my thoughts my f...

my centre celebrated Easter with the kids today!! we had lots of Easter Eggssss  and Mini Eggs choc!!! we therapists seems to finish most of the "eggsss" instead of the kids~ XD tis week will be my last week of enjoying  the lil lunch "break" time in centre start from nxt week i will have VERY pack schedules mayb... 15mins lunch break each day i guess?!  but good news is i gonna have a cute lil blue eyes boy as my forth kids in centre^^ now i have both "barbie" and "ken"   hehehe.... i juz envy my kids hair and eyes they were so beautiful  no matter how messy is her hair she still looks so cute and adorable... today is friday time "fly" while working here it seems like yesterday were only tuesday... is a good thing i guess i dun have to struggle to pass my time "it" passed without giving me a notice... my body is SUPER exhausted now my eyes lids losses its strength lil by lil  it's slowly closing down now... i guess tat...

start working on 1st of April had been 2 weeks since then slowly adapting to the routine of waking up at 7am and  reached home ard 5.30pm (usually) 1st week of work is really stressful for me so much to learn and so little time to master it when i get nervous during my section wif the kids they get tense up too so have to really have a clear mind  of what are the sequence of the programs that needed to be taught and stay calm at all time playing with normal kids are easy for me but these kids  they r diff and they play differently d method u used on normal kids can't apply here learning from the senior here helps a lot but somehow is like a "personal" talent the seniors were more like an example you have to find ur own ways of entertaining and play wif them no one can really help you.... i am assigned with three kids each with different behaviors and temperaments after getting on hand with them for 2 weeks i'm slowly getting to know them in depth tis is really ...

there're some little things bordering me these days especially tis two days... trying to clear my mind and get it back  to the place it use to be but is was hard for me mayb my mom sense my worries or mayb is just so happened that she passes me this book of prayers today... while reading through the small book of the prayers for daily use  i came across this little meaningful phase where after i read it everything that're bordering me in these days were solved and disappeared.. i knew this truth for long... just that my worries covered it all  thanks for reminding me... I'm all ready now...  Let Go and Let GOD As children bring their broken toys            with tears for us to mend, I brought my broken dreams to GOD,            because He was my friend. But then, instead of leaving Him             in peace, to work alone. I hung around and tried to help,    ...

春天，是天使在向人间微笑。 对自己微笑， 收获一份好心情； 对陌生人微笑， 送去一份祝福； 对世界微笑， 期待地球更加和谐美好。

have not update my blogs for days or maybe weeks not really aware of the time passed for me it seems like not moving much but in reality  it's moving in the pace it always does after days of cracking head weeks of uncertainty I've finally sort out my plan i really do need a plan if not i can really get lost  in my way searching for dreams now that i have my plan at least i know my destination and how am i going to get there in month back then i only have my destination i knew where i wanna go but couldn't find my way to there at least for now all i need is to follow my plan even though it could have some minor changes as i move on after all life never stop changing isn't it... stubborn  irrational might sound like a bad behaviors but sometimes after being a good girl for decade being stubborn n irrational sound like a good idea those who go after their dreams which of them were not stubborn n irrational therefore i wanna be a bad girl this time if that ...

people said you'll lost ur way and will be hesitate bout directions to pick right before you enter ur tertiary study am i late or what coz i am never lost all tis while in deciding what to study but now tat after i finish everything i am lost in the sense of which directions lead to my dream my GPRS seems to broke down out of sudden currently i have no map on my hand all i have is a compass is tat enough? i wonder............ ..

when thing doesn't turn out to be in the way tat you expected disappointment overtake it hardly i alwayz try to stay as positive as i can no matter wut obstacles pop up in my life but i am still a human after all emotion sometimes over take my rationality the good thing is it doesn't last long probably half a day it'll then slowly fate way when everyone come to different ages their thoughts change or mayb somethings tat happen in life that's powerful enough to make them change their mind reading and seeing how others talk bout their life standing in their shoe trying hard to feel what they feel sometimes can really change the way u look at yourself for me at this very moment i can truly feels the quote that once i come across which saying something like "Dreams, that is what make me go on" tats a quote in chinese which said that "plan can never catch up with changes" i truly believe that is not that i refuse or not goin to p...

the sky seems like having a bad mood it has been crying for days my clothes that were hanging at the balcony started to complain bout the humidity they couldn't get dry since they were washed 2 days ago now they were shift into my room begging for help from mr.Fan hopefully by tmr all of them can be dry.... coz their master ME is goin back homee tmr...  ^________^ today my sister n her husband work night shift goin to be a quiet night oni ms internet and ms i-touch company me tonite it's been a week i did not update my blog sometimes is not bout the laziness it's the timing i prefer writing my blog when i was alone as it feels as i am in my own world recording the journey i have just walk through since the day i came back from US time really flies as fast as it could i been waiting searching & interviewing for almost 2 months sitting at home walking around meeting different people really makes me think a lots in these days it seems like i have just taken another st...

it's been almost 3 weeks since my last post wondering what have i done in these days basically i did NOTHING i went back to KL for 2 weeks and within these 2 weeks my mom "realize" that her daughter lose some weight again thus she began her "PLAN" of putting weightSsss on me and guess wut daughter NEVER win their mother she feed me once per every 2 hours!!  i can really felt for the piggy... > < now that i've back to singapore back to my "interviewing life"  i am trying HARD to get back to my weight cause my clothes and shorts... they are complaining LOUD now... they feel breathless when i worn them can i imagine how much weight i put on?!! ok lets forget bout the weight now lets focus on the target it make me feel better..... =D  is almost 10pm now staying alone in room after living in singapore for almost a month i learn something that i have not learn back in home tat is being alone... back then i never go shopping alone and never take...