2 weeks

start working on 1st of April

had been 2 weeks since then

slowly adapting to the routine

of waking up at 7am and 

reached home ard 5.30pm (usually)

1st week of work

is really stressful for me

so much to learn and so little time to master it

when i get nervous during my section wif the kids

they get tense up too

so have to really have a clear mind 

of what are the sequence of the programs

that needed to be taught

and stay calm at all time

playing with normal kids are easy for me

but these kids 

they r diff and they play differently

d method u used on normal kids

can't apply here

learning from the senior here

helps a lot

but somehow is like a "personal" talent

the seniors were more like an example

you have to find ur own ways of entertaining

and play wif them

no one can really help you....

i am assigned with three kids

each with different behaviors and temperaments

after getting on hand with them for 2 weeks

i'm slowly getting to know them in depth

tis is really "some" job

salary n benefits were not very high

just about the usual standard in market

but the job satisfaction is high

and is mostly frm the kids 

seeing them mastered a program 

really put a smile on ur face unconsciously

hearing them calling ur name or looking for you

make you feel even better

for those who looks for tis kind of simple happiest in work

and salary not the priority

tis is really the job.... 

not much of stress once you are use to the system and techniques

no external work after working hrs

and working hrs fly till u don't realize...

colleagues were mostly nice people

not much of politics goin on 

so you can really have a peaceful time 

working in here..

sometimes i do think that

is it better if i get a job which have higher salary

so i can save $$ faster and able to further study faster

whenever tis idea pops up 

another thoughts of mine will pops up too

since i planned to further study in a year later

y don't i used up tis one year time to enrich myself

with the knowledge of und tis kind of kids

b4 furthering study in course that related to them

i might need to work 2 jobs...

but the knowledge n experience is much more important 

tis cognitive dissonance really borders me...sometimes

it appears out of sudden

and disappeared without notice

it just come n go as it wish too

but tis cognition oni happen for a day or two

then it when missing again

then after few days

it pay me a visit again

> <

i think "it" really miss me lots

anyway...

i am not really influence by it

is juz a thought to challenge ur thoughts n believe

which is somehow a good thing

as it strengthen you and your soul~ 

^^