Breath in rain

raining day in Singapore

hardly able to see the BIG smile from mr.Sun today

spend my whole day in front of the computer 

watch and laugh and eat and laugh again

it's like a routine just that the sequences changed everyday

yesterday 

after few introduction and talk from my aunt

i decide to go to the church that she been mentioning about

i took the mrt which take me approximately 30mins to reach Novena

then walk around 5 to 10mins to the church

it was a big and beautiful church

when i reached 

i saw few where there

some sitting quietly some praying hard with all their heart

hoping that God will heard their prayer

i pick a bench far away from the people and sit down

every time i go to church

i feel peace

it's like things around you stop at the moment you step in

i slowly place my bag aside and started to pray

pray with all my heart 

pray for all the problems and wishes that i wish that God is able to guide me with

i repeated my prayer again and again

until the moment where i feel that God heard me

i finished my prayer and lay back on the bench

looking at the Lord statue in front of me

my tears felt without notice

i have no idea why the tears decide to run out from my eyes

i just feel that it is out of my control

mayb here is where i feel safe and peace

a moment where anything thats harmful couldn't enter tis territory

i wish i wish

i pray and pray

i knew someone out there heard me

hopefully he would not let me wait too long